hurtz
09-06-2008, 10:56 PM
So..I don't know where else to turn to...this is the best lesbian/gay parenting forum I can find..
I'm late twenties, a lesbian, and have been with my current girflriend for about 2 and a half years now...we break up and get back together constantly..she has a toddler who I adore and who adores me....We just don't seem right together anymore..yet I'm not sure what is keeping us from splitting up..
I love her more than anything..and I'd do anything for her..yet she calls me selfish...to this day I've moved cross country, given up my passions and loves to be in this relationship...and i seem to keep getting the same hurtful insults..
She also seems to be more concerned about her child then she is about our relationship as a family..obviously a strong mother and child bond, I'm all for..but it seems like i'm the third wheel half the time... it's not "hey lets go out to eat", it's "do you want to come with us to get something to eat".....
Am I being dramatic here? Too nit picky? I mean..she doesnt confide in me when things are wrong and it seems as though she spends more time talking to her ex than me...I clean..and attempt to make money for the pile of bills..then I get ignored in the morning and emotional tossed around..and when i mention it, then I'm being "selfish"..
I mean..there's never a good time..now is a very bad time because family issues she's going through...but I'm so numb and tired...I feel like a zomby..I feel like I've been emotionally disconnected from everything because my reactions are the wrong reactions..constantly..so why react?..I feel void..hurt..and half empty..
If anyone can help?:confused:
I'm late twenties, a lesbian, and have been with my current girflriend for about 2 and a half years now...we break up and get back together constantly..she has a toddler who I adore and who adores me....We just don't seem right together anymore..yet I'm not sure what is keeping us from splitting up..
I love her more than anything..and I'd do anything for her..yet she calls me selfish...to this day I've moved cross country, given up my passions and loves to be in this relationship...and i seem to keep getting the same hurtful insults..
She also seems to be more concerned about her child then she is about our relationship as a family..obviously a strong mother and child bond, I'm all for..but it seems like i'm the third wheel half the time... it's not "hey lets go out to eat", it's "do you want to come with us to get something to eat".....
Am I being dramatic here? Too nit picky? I mean..she doesnt confide in me when things are wrong and it seems as though she spends more time talking to her ex than me...I clean..and attempt to make money for the pile of bills..then I get ignored in the morning and emotional tossed around..and when i mention it, then I'm being "selfish"..
I mean..there's never a good time..now is a very bad time because family issues she's going through...but I'm so numb and tired...I feel like a zomby..I feel like I've been emotionally disconnected from everything because my reactions are the wrong reactions..constantly..so why react?..I feel void..hurt..and half empty..
If anyone can help?:confused: